I am always in need of reminding of what is important. It is so easy to get caught up in things going on in the world and our reactions to them. It is easy to get caught up in the reactions of those we love and take on their journeys as our own, worrying about the things that happen.
I find it harder because I also believe it is not enough to know for myself. I want to allow other people their own journeys, but I also want to be sure that I am speaking up on important issues, and that I never get so comfortable I do not see the suffering around me and fail to feel anything or do anything about it. Continue reading →
“I only feel close to people who arouse my energy, who make enormous demands of me, who are capable of enriching me with experience, pain, people who do not doubt my courage, or my toughness. People who do not believe me naive or innocent, but who challenge my keenest wisdom, who have the courage to treat me like a woman in spite of the fact that they are aware of my vulnerability.” Anaïs Nin
I hope you know how much you are loved and that your pockets are full to overflowing with that love. I hope it is love that helps you to shape the shield that you will need to do battle with life.
You have made us smile from the moment you were born with your bright blue eyes, and your red hair. Your thoughtful evaluation of things before you speak and your drawl is a delight to all of us. We have enjoyed your prowess in the swimming pool, your willingness to try new things and to be part of what the other kids are doing, just enjoying being “in the game,” without every getting caught up or lost in whether you are winning, or are the best. How I wish I had been more open, like you are, to experiencing things, and less burdened with the notion of what others thought.Continue reading →
“There’s two things people do with the shit of life. The first person puts it in their bag, in their pockets, up their shirt, down their trousers. They carry it around with them! ‘Why me? It’s unfair, it’s terrible, it’s not nice!’ That’s called ‘carrying the shit.’ Now you find if you carry shit around you lose a lot of friends…But there’s the other thing you can do with the cow shit of life….You dig it into your garden! So instead of just complaining about it, you make use of it…It takes a long time sometimes when you’re in the middle of this. You can’t just get rid of it in an instant. It takes weeks, sometimes years. You keep digging in a little bit every day. But it always happens that that moment occurs when you look in front of your door and that whole pile of shit is gone. It’s vanished. It hasn’t gone nowhere. Something’s happened in the back garden…These beautiful flowers so fragrant that people walking down the street can smell it and they like to visit to see your amazing garden. And your fruit trees – the apples in there are so delicious and sweet. So much so you give them to all your friends…Your garden which you grow from the shit of your life is not just for you. It’s for everybody who even comes close to you.” Ajahn Brahm
If you knew my life story, you would probably ask me how I manage to get out of bed each day. I am not sure you would even believe my story, but “the story,” is NOT the story. Those are things that happened to me.
The story is that everything that happened only served to break me open and make me so appreciate of love. It allowed me to see beauty where others do not, to see hope where others may not look. I am grateful for my life. I really am, even when I sometimes have to administer first aid to my scabs that life can sometimes pick at. Continue reading →