“See, this is my opinion: we all start out knowing magic. We are born with whirlwinds, forest fires, and comets inside us. We are born able to sing to birds and read the clouds and see our destiny in grains of sand. But then we get the magic educated right out of our souls. We get it churched out, spanked out, washed out, and combed out. We get put on the straight and narrow and told to be responsible. Told to act our age. Told to grow up, for God’s sake. And you know why we were told that? Because the people doing the telling were afraid of our wildness and youth, and because the magic we knew made them ashamed and sad of what they’d allowed to wither in themselves.” Robert McCammon
Life has given me everything. Every experience has taught me, whether positive or negative, every lesson has been perfectly delivered to burn its message deep into my heart. Sometimes I have fought the lesson and had to repeat the learning but all that I am today, I am because I have lived it.
If I am kind it is because I have chosen to be kind, over and over again. I cannot have lived a life of cruelty and revenge and be kind today. What I choose this very moment creates in me who I am. It changes and impacts the person I was before the action and it influences the person who will act in the next moment. Because I am imperfect and make mistakes, the only way to move forward in an effective way is to hold on to the lesson from the mistake and carry it forward to help me with the next lesson.
Every time I chose to deny who I was and try to adopt what others thought I should be, I gave away something so precious . . . Some of it I have never been able to get back. Our actions define us. Every single one of them, no matter how small.
I was lucky enough to have been born as a weirdo. I was weird because my brain was not wired to see things, to process them, in the same way, that everyone else did. I was not wanted as a child. I was usually alone, and seldom had friends who understood me. I learned that I could do it. I could make it without their help. I could figure things out on my own. I live my life unapologetically as who I am. I do things my way. I give myself permission to be me.
I am not special, or perfect, or some famous millionaire. But I am an awesome me. I took what I was given and I learned to love and nurture it and not just wish it away. Continue reading
“No, they won’t understand you, they will call you depressed, self-indulgent, mad, but you will smile, for you are like the daffodil, and you never wanted to be understood.” Jeff Foster
There are people in life who wait for life to come to them …
There are people that listen to what other people’s opinions are and align themselves to those. There are people who will not make a move until they look around and see what everyone else is doing, so they can do exactly the same thing.
They write, sing, paint … just like they are taught. They pull around them their training as proof of their talent and imagine that if they can just do it perfect enough, they will be a writer, singer, artist …. Continue reading
I am not always a big fan of the big hurrah that we see in some of the positive videos for our kids, for women, for men ….
They sound awesome. Of course these are the kind of things we want our kids to hear. “You can do anything. ” “You are meant to be great!” It is good to have role models and mentors. They give us examples of people who made it BUT I can never agree with the idea that we should be looking at these people as “THIS is what I am supposed to do,” or “THIS is HOW I am supposed to do it.” Continue reading
I see the truth in you. I see the beauty and all the possibilities. Hidden behind the physical, the barriers or how you define yourself or what you do, I see you. I see the light.
As children we only know ourselves as endlessly possible and we embrace life and people and situations with a complete willingness to learn about ourselves, others and the world. As we grow up we often find ourselves caught in the dilemma of fighting for a vision of ourselves that has dimmed with each passing year and possibly standing alone, never to be understood, or joining everyone else and blending into the woodwork. One is a lonely unknown and the other is a group activity with thousands before us and thousands behind. We might be happy, right? Continue reading
You don’t have to feel ‘okay’ all the time. You don’t have to be free from resistance all the time, happy all the time, enlightened all the time, peaceful all the time.
“There is no ‘all the time’ for you! You are bigger than that, less limited. You are not bound by time, nor space. You are the space for the okay and the not-okay, the acceptance and the resistance, the light and the dark, the joy and the pain.
You don’t need any fixed and unchangeable image of yourself.
You don’t need to be the enlightened guru or the spiritual warrior. You don’t need to be the peaceful one, the awakened one, the strong one, the highly evolved one, the one immune to suffering. All are limitations on your nature.
Simply be what you are, not ‘this’ one or ‘that’ one, but The One, the space for all of it. All of it!
Let life kick you off your pedestal time and time again, until you lose all interest in being on pedestals.” Jeff Foster