“We must become so alone, so utterly alone, that we withdraw into our innermost self. It is a way of bitter suffering. But then our solitude is overcome, we are no longer alone, for we find that our innermost self is the spirit, that it is God, the indivisible. And suddenly we find ourselves in the midst of the world, yet undisturbed by its multiplicity, for our innermost soul we know ourselves to be one with all being.” Hermann Hesse
It has been a tough few weeks for me on many many levels. I am taking time, paying attention, accepting that the problems are mine to deal with and that there is an opportunity here for growth. Life has taught me a lot. If I have wisdom it is not because it has been gifted to me because of some superior intelligence. It was learned from the many mistakes I made, because I am as flawed a human being as anyone else.
I am in the middle of having to deal with something that I can no longer ignore, probably the most painful thing I have or ever will have to deal with. It is something I have to do alone and the weight of it is impacting me spiritually, emotionally and physically. This is healing at its most difficult, but it is also about standing up and speaking the truth – no matter the cost. Continue reading
It is hard to hang on to who you are. It is particularly hard when the anger and hate of others impacts you. There are many people now who are acutely aware of the bad mood, and the negativity of others. It is part and parcel of a growing ability for empathy and a development of a deeper compassion. When you feel the emotions of others, how do you not let them take over and pull you from your own centre? Continue reading
“I believe that secularism is not the enemy of spirituality. Our spirits are in fact secular and free. But the enemy of your spirit is materialism which produces legalism. People scramble for the “perfect law” in order fix everything, while failing to see that law only points towards what is material. And so, people find themselves going around in a circle that will never end. The key is to break away from that circle. You have to begin focusing your attention onto what is inside you and what is inside everybody else. This will in turn produce common sense, intuition, and understanding. Then comes strength.” C. Joybell C.
I think we have all had the experience of trying to do what others expect of us, only to find out they still were not happy with us and worse, we were even less happy with ourselves. Perhaps one of the most important things we can do for our children is to teach them to understand what they want and to be able to communicate that in a healthy, responsible way. I have a feeling that might make for a much more meaningful life, with a better chance for them to get what they need instead of just parroting what others want to hear, as they have been taught. Continue reading
In the midst of my husband’s illness, before he died, we were at our lowest as a family. I say that in reference to money, options, lifestyle, family support and friends. I had spent almost 2 years of my life, dropping everything including my job and writing to being there for my husband 24/7 in the time he had left. I had no idea what day it was other than how many days until the next refill of his prescriptions. Days and nights were irrelevant. He slept when he could and sometimes was awake all night. The time he slept was divided between getting things done that required me to go away from him and catching the little sleep I could. Often my time was spent going to and from the hospital to see him, fighting with doctors and the people around me who made a tough situation worse but who I would not let make it worse for him, and sitting in a hospital room alone not knowing if he would make it through the night. Continue reading